Ahh...

This heatwave is terrible.

So yeah it's been such a lovely day for me today...can you feel the sarcasm when you read my words? well you do now.

Despite going to an academy every week and revising with a lone mentor in a quiet room,with the best revision possible (eventhough the revision didn't really help me with the test O_o),scoring usually 35 out of 40 questions right and being called a gifted student...something went wrong today.

A test was supplied to me for today.The subject being level two in keyskills for English.Due to being apparently "gifted" O_O I skipped level one,my mentor assuring me that there was a placement in level 2. Level 3 can only be done in a university which goes onto a degree and such.


The salient part of my journal is that I failed my test.

My performance in the test was abysmal...but the thing that really got me...xD which nearly made me literally laugh out loud, was that due to missing out on one question I failed the whole test.The whole damn test.Just because of one.Damn.Question.

It's strange.I thought I would be unsuccessful.I had a bad feeling all day that something was going to go wrong.

It didn't help that a cold's currently attacking my system... nor that I was deprived of sleep last night/morning due to my brother,who was screaming rather victoriously down his headset when he won a battle of some kind online at 2:30AM,was keeping me awake. Eventhough he knew my alarm would wake me up at 7:00am he gave me the impression that he didn't care about me or my exam.

I've been upset all day due to failing.My thoughts were focusing on a written paper,thinking that's what the test would be. Instead they sat me in front of a computer with a code and such- expecting me to know what to do eventhough they should of known I was new to the system.

It doesn't matter though.I've experienced the test and know what it's like now.

Maybe I was subconsciously confident that I would do well in the test that-see >_< It just keeps replaying in my mind.My friend said to me that I'm beating myself up too much about it.

I know I'm over reacting.I mean my freaking neighbour was rushed into hospital last night obecause of difficulty with her breathing-and yet there's me sulking in a corner just because I failed an exam...eventhough my neighbour could be fighting for her life.This journal should of been done for her not about me being selfish.

There's worse things in life then failing an exam.

But... damn hope she's okay. D;

Ohwell enough of my ridiculous speech on that subject.Eventhough I know there's so many worse things going on in the world,I felt the need to express how I felt about today's events.My guess to being sleep deprived didn't help with my mood for today.We all know that if we don't get enough sleep we feel awful.

After tomorrow We (me and maw) will be travelling down to our home town (w00t for MK) and EE can't wait! atleast me and maw will be spending a little quality time together, away from the guys (which never happens ).I'm trying to become more active online so I can review people's deviations and reply to the comments they've sent me.My target for this month is to atleast submit a deviation.Atleast ONE D;;; ..

I hope you guys are doing well ...mannnn it's soooo hawtttt my cabbage brain is boiling to the point it resembles soup D;;;